The Clown

In this fucked up world, in a fucked up town,
I always try to smile, and they call me the clown,

In my borrowed pants and grandpa's suspenders,
I stand in front of men and see them frown,

I wanna make them smile and I try real hard,
I roll on the floor and I jump up and down,

But I make a mess and I fail to impress,
The show's a disaster, the show is a letdown,

I cannot carry on, let me try some other day,
Right now it's time to go home, it's time to shutdown,

And a little girl is too concerned about the joker,
And I tell her to forget him, for the clown is just a common noun.

What??

What am I, but a paper boat,
Sometimes I sink, sometimes I float,

And who am I, but a haunting ghost,
Sometimes you see through me, sometimes you don't,

And what is life, but a colorful kite,
Sometimes it swerves to left, sometimes drifts to right,

And what is happiness, but an interesting mirage,
Things that make us happy the most, are seldom large.

The Flight of Desire
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Standing on the ground,

Staring into the sky,

Thinking,

To fly or not to fly.

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The earth is not for me,

It’s so crowded, so full.

I’m ready to make that leap,

But not sure, if I’ll escape the gravitational pull.

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Oh gravity, you are such a temptation,

I’m struggling to undo your clasps.

I need an innovation,

I need to escape your grasp.

XX

O alchemist, do you have the potion,

that can help me fly?

Or can you make the heavens conspire,

to lower the sky?

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The alchemist said:

The problem is not that

the sky is high,

The problem is that you don’t know

that you can fly.

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He added:

My son, you can fly if you have the desire,

you can fly, if your soul is on fire.

XX

And he revealed:

If you can’t fly at first,

do not lose heart.

Just flutter your wings hard enough,

and the gravity will fall apart.

DREAMS
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Dreams, they flutter like a butterfly,

When you are fast asleep,

You dream of flying away to a far off lake,

There is a ripple in the lake and you wake up,

Dreams, you can’t recall when you are awake.

Reality doesn’t soothe you,

And you dream when you are wide awake,

Wide eyed, staring into nothing,

On a dream-loom, dreams you are weaving,

A thread snaps and you wake up,

Dreams, you can’t recall when you are awake.

Dreams aplenty in your eyes,

Every moment a new dream,

Your eyes make,

And what happened,

To the dreams that were broken,

Will they be continued later,

In another retake?

Graveyard of dreams
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So messed up, and I can smell the fear,
Sometimes I wonder, what brought me here,
The shadows dance, when the light is gone,
Walk through the graveyard of my dreams,
From an era bygone.

My memory's sharp, but my vision's a blur,
Photographs from the past, they just don't get any clear,
So disoriented, wish I could disappear,
Into the wild, out of the town,
Walk all by myself, yes I walk alone!

He: Me and You

A myriad hopes and a zillion desires
Few efforts and He's scared to perspire
He thinks the path is chosen
and His steps pre-determined
The slave of His destiny
towards change He's not inclined
He's in an ocean
but He's afraid to navigate
He let's the waves chose His shore
and He'd rather curse His fate
He chooses to follow
doesn't realize that He can lead
He's forgotten that He can conquer
He's somehow learned to plead
and sometimes He wonders
who is He?
He could be You or He could be Me.


(Bless the hukka, bless the talk and blessed be the road on which I walk)

________BREAK FREE_________
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And here I'm yet again,
and yet again I don't know
what to write,
the words are fighting
in my mind,
and I'm in a worldly fight,
wandering like the aimless wind,
flowing like the channelled stream,
sleeping when I'm wide awake,
and waking up in the dreams,
and it's very cold outside,
but somewhere deep within I burn,
and on a bright sunny day
who the heck clouded my sun,
and I see a runway
and I want to run,
but not sure if I'll fly,
whether i'll kiss the ground,
or will I reach the sky,
and somebody glued my wings,
can't flap them anymore,
I feel disturbed like the
agitated waves falling on the shore,
sitting on the thin branch
of an old leafless tree,
I so much want to break free,
oh yes, I got to break free!

Keep Walking: Johnnie Walker
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Suraj maddham, aakaash me,
Tu fire hai jiski talaash me,
Chalta rahe bas is aas me,
Manzil tere hai ab paas me,

Tu sajdeh kar to khuda milega,
Pyaas lage to baarish hogi,
Chalta jaaye raah milegi,
Thak jaaye to chaaon hogi,

Tu hai hawa, kuchh bekhabar,
Rokega kaun ab tera safar,
Nazar utha kar zara dekh le,
Manzil tujhe aaye nazar,

Dastak de to dwaar khulenge,
Thokar se parvat bhi hilenge,
Raahen teri hongi roshan,
Chalta rahe humsafar milenge.

SAAZISH-E-KAAYENAAT
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Yeh saazish-e-kaayenaat hai,
ki manzil zara door hai,
Aur yeh bhi saazish-e-kaayenaat hai,
ki mujhe chalte jaane ka suroor hai.

What if?
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What if the journey gets prolonged,
and to reach your destination,
you have to wait so long?
And what if you reach there,
and find that you don't belong?
Would that mean you were wrong?
And would that make you quit,
or would you start a journey new?
And would you make your own path,
or would you take the road travelled by a few?

Khwaab
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Khwaab jo dekhe saare,
toote, bikhre bechaare,
andhiyaare me jo chamke,
ujaalon se wo haare,

Aankhen bhi tanha hain ab,
kahan gaye sapne wo sab,
aawara banjaare the jo,
laut kar aayenge ab kab,

Door ek vaadi bole,
gujre yahan se the wo,
hawa mita kar gayi,
kadamon ke nishaan the jo,

Kuchh aise gayab huye,
roothe ho jaise sabhi,
wo bhi chhor gaya,
sapna jo dekha abhi,

Aankhen yeh tanha meri,
hain kuchh thak si gayi,
aks dhundle huye,
palken kuchh bhaari hui,

Toote jo saare khwaab,
to bhala kya hua,
aankhen meri keh rahi,
dekhengi khwaab naya.